Looking at you wondering if you even care.
I'm bleeding because of you. And it seems like I'm not there.
I hurt so bad when your not around and when you are sad.
I don't even know you that's the hard part about it.
You mean so much to me I don't even know what to do.
I always smile when I look at you.
You don't know what you mean to me.
I know your thinking am I crazy?
The answer is, no I'm not.
Its just you mean a lot.
I wouldn't know what I will do if I never met you.
But now your sad and I have no clue why.
Sometimes I think you're about to say goodbye.
This is the worse day so far.
I just have this feeling were falling apart.
I know you love me and I know you can't take it.
I know I love you and I can't handle it.
You think what is there left to do?
But now I know I completely love you.
But I can't believe I just hurt myself over you.
~this is dedicated to Michael...~
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Taking a knife and slitting my wrist
Thinking why does my life have to be like this.
Popping pills
Trying to get insanely ill
Just to forget what you have done and said
You think I forget and move on
When it really stains in all the pain
Deep inside
You’re the reason I want to die
Only you
Don’t blame anyone else
You used to be there for me
Now your never here
You drink and don’t give a shit what I think
Well dad I never ever wanted to say or feel this
I shouldn’t feel that I should be the one to die and dissapear
But thanks to you
You made my life a miserable Hell
Its over and done with okay I hate you
THIS one is dedicated to my dad...
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I never thought this would really happen
I thought it was just a fantasy/dream
But I think my dreams thoughts and fantasys have come true.
Everything I've always looked for,
I've found it all in you.
I believe that you wont hurt me
Because the way you care
Like no other guy has ever
Seem to care before
Boy you mean so much to me
If I could not have you
I would serisouly disappear
When It seems like the worst day ever
You make everything be so clear
Every single second I wait for you to come
Its okay because its worth the wait
Because your so very special to me
You’re the one I will never ever forget
With out a regret
You’re the best thing life has ever brought to me
You just mean everything
I know ive told you before
But this time it really means more
I will never ask for anything more then you and a family of
Our own
My tears I shed from you
Only mean the joy
Because I know that were going to be together
Forever
This one is for william...................
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Unseen tears
And unseen fears
Hidden behind this ugly face
hopeless wishes
And unanswered prayers
Stuck inside this ugly disgrace
Lost inside her imaginary place
Wanting to be popular
And 2 have a pretty face
Everybody thinks she is doing well
And has no fears
Or no tears to fall
But only if they could see
Whats deeply hurting she
And last but not least this one is mine..lol
hope you liked the poems...lol | 
umm it was FUN me and jenina fought against each other on the boxing thingy... Lol, obviously jenina won... it was really exhausting, you know?.
.. umm andre (my sisters son)... was climbing up the ladder thing by himself so i really didn't have to take care of him
. uhh, the HIGHLIGHT of the day was the HOT skater dude..!! Woohoo
... he was all kinds of sexy..lol umm, I gave Justine 20 dollars YAY! lol... all that boucing was fun and at the end of the day i was burnt...
... I'm having a hard decision on what i should get... a PSP or an IPOD.. tell me what you think...i need some input.. HAHA...
.. umm ima go because im totally pooped ahaha... 
... well i hope everyone's break is going on great, mine sure isn't Haha... lol.I'm going to the woodward park thingy because Jenina is making me
I'm planning to go somewhere with Jenina thins weekend,but im not sure where.... 